Having both is like having a shadow monster at your ankle, never leaving you alone, always attacking you at night, only letting you sleep to have nightmares or night terrors, if you ever go outside even for an hour, the monster will point out every time someone looks at you, everytime time someone smiles at you or even walks past you, you then start to think all the negative and worry and/or panic about the little stupid things. It’s like the only time you feel safe is when you’re lost in your own little world away from all the darkness and horror and troubles and monsters. No matter what anyone says to you, “you’ll get better”, “your fine” “stop moping about you look happy” these words are foreign to you, you don't know how to cope, you seem to be always lost. And as the months…years go by, it only gets worse, the monster grows, the monster invites more monster to join it, and before you know it all your dreams are nightmares and all your nightmares are night-terrors, before you know it you feel as if you can only venture outside if you have another person with you at all times, and now your little world gets invaded. Now your not safe. No where to run. No where to hide. You feel safe but afraid at the same time. The darkness soon takes over. The darkness over-takes the monster. Your eyes and mind becomes its gateway to your weaknesses, screaming at you when you look at yourself. It really sucks having both.. for 8 years now.. :/