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What is it like to have depression and Anxiety?Having both is like having a shadow monster at your ankle, never leaving you alone, always attacking you at night, only letting you sleep to have nightmares or night terrors, if you ever go outside even for an hour, the monster will point out every time someone looks at you, everytime time someone smiles at you or even walks past you, you then start to think all the negative and worry and/or panic about the little stupid things. It’s like the only time you feel safe is when you’re lost in your own little world away from all the darkness and horror and troubles and monsters. No matter what anyone says to you, “you’ll get better”, “your fine” “stop moping about you look happy” these words are foreign to you, you don't know how to cope, you seem to be always lost. And as the months…years go by, it only gets worse, the monster grows, the monster invites more monster to join it, and before you know it all your dream
i like drawing and creating art..
but these days it seems to be going nowhere
Too many people are staring into the "professional digital artworks"
What about us?
the non professional ones?
We work just as hard to make our work
We all have dreams to use our art skills throughout our lives
I barely get any feedback these days.. the most ive gotten is 2 or 3 people (if that)
If nothing is going to take me somewhere
If no person is going to look or notice
If the creative ones get passed, un-noticed..
Should i even bother to continue creating my works?
I know theyre not the -professional digital art- or the -professional traditional art-
But in a whole its the best its creator can do.
i am also speaking for those who wonder like me,
Why is it that nearly (if not all) the attention are only focused on those who do courses, on those whom seem professional in their field, who do concepts for games/movies.
Why not rest of us?
We put just as much hard work
We spend just as mu
Im still aliveI only just realized how long it has been since i last posted a picture.. o.0
Not that anyone cared or noticed...>.>
Been busy with alot of things including making more NEW (epicness) artworks,
Ill upload them when i have the time
Which is idk when..
My tumblr URL has changed if your interested.
Me Tumblr.. warning it has LOTSA rave lights.
Feel free to follow me and i shall follow you back.
Please read my post on questions as i am allowing each person to ask me at the most 30 questions.
Because i simple adore being asked things.
Read the post on the main page for more info.
Llama love all around
WallpapersEver saw a picture of yourself, a group of friends, or just something you adore and wanted it to be your wallpaper but nicely edited?
Well i now do that for you at no cost at all~
The above links are 2 that ive done for my mates on Facebook.
Your requested photo(s) can be of anything but NO NUDES!
Either link me the photo or email it to me.
If going to email, send me an inbox then i shall give it the contact to send to.
Each wallpaper takes about 15-30mins to make, so youll have it quickly.
Once completed i will upload, link you the page then viola!
One's DisguiseCreature stalking
Is it imaginary, is it real
Is it something more..or less
We may never know..
Glistening red eyes of horror
Fanged jaw with evil happy grin
To crawl among dreams
To grow in Nightmare
Speaks of words with disturbing effect in unknown language of our own.
To be tall, bone skinned, 2wings of a dying dove
A mind like a zombie
A heart of broken steel
To whisper in one's sleep
To breathe into your soul
To disturb your thinking
Wishing it had some happiness.. to feel alive like it once did.
Blackened spiked tail
Spine jiggered and bare
Hugging you with sense of fear, yet you feel like you know well
It's memories drapes your flashbacks
Thinking through...long and hard
Eyes open wide with shock and confusion
To see who this monster really is, to see it never a monster.
But an old friend caught in their own nightmare's disguise
Seeking help, lost everywhere, turning more
Where there is no cure but to destroy the Nightma
TUMBLRRRRRRRI has a tumblr
*feels proud & part of world again*
My tumblr contains my artwork and my photography with more of both being added soons.
ASK MEH stuff on it.. or the zombies will rape your butt!
Please follow and ill follow you :3
Courses? Plz help!Im slowly getting into doing digital painting/drawing and im really enjoying it,
but i would like to do a course (preferable online because things at home arnt good)
Ive been looking through the internet and not so sure as to which one to pick.
Any recommendations as to what course would be best for me?
Also any particular digital-paint programs/soft wares that would help me?
awsomenessWell finally home from my trip. The 5hour plane flight was pretty okay.
Im open for any commissions and/or requests. (I cannot do humans - absolutely suck at them - lol)
I will be submitting again very soon.
Have alot of drawing ideas and some WIP to upload, so there'll be something to see very soons. ^.^
Point Giveaway (open)Haven't held a single giveaway yet this year… so, let's hold one now! Here it goes:
- 6 winners in total -
◊ 1st place:
100 points (one winner)
◊ 2nd place:
50 points (two winners)
◊ 3rd place:
25 points (three winners)
Although appreciated, it is NOT required to watch me, give a llama, advertise, etc.
Reasons for rules can be read here
WINNER WILL BE CHOSEN THROUGH
RANDOMIZER NEXT SUNDAY (SEP. 28)
Unrelated, but if you want to help me, please answer (some of) following questions: Which social sites/platforms do you frequent? Do these sites have easy & user-friendly access to archives? Could any of these work as a free online encyclopedia? What are your favourite online encyclopedias/wikis and why? For an online wiki, is it better to have its own site or part of an already
Birthday giveaway - 1000 POINTSI just got back after having a very good weekend, to 1900+ journal comments and 800+ profile comments to scroll through.
I WAS NOT PREPARED!!!!
Needless to say; It's gonna take me another day (or 2) to catch up.
So the winner will be announced then.
In the meanwhile; enjoy some of the awesome birthday art I received (and I'm terribly hyped up about)
Happy Birthday Damaimikaz! by StickyNovaHappy Birthday Damai Mikaz! by ChuckleArtHappy Birthday Damai Mikaz by ryuu-samazxOde to the Master by IdiotTwinssadasdd HAPPY BIRTHDAY C: by lluzyla
Oh... did I mentioned already DA interviewed me for getting seniority?
As some of you might know I have a birthday coming up.
September 20th this year I'm turning
Watchers Raffle #2 - Win a Free Thigh-upHello lovelies,
Please read the journal carefully.
This is my second watchers raffle. First one's winner was OhSquishy and here's her prize:
This time, the winner will get a thigh-up similar to these:
You have to be a watcher of mine before this journal was posted. If you want to participate in future watchers raffles, you can watch me now.
You need to fav this journal to get a number.
You need to comment on this journal with references of 3 characters max that you want me to draw.
You can edit
Kiwi's Big Fall Giveaway + Kiriban!Hey everybody, it's fall, school's back and a chill is in the air. Weeks like this it seems like the fun of summer are gone for good, so here's a giveaway to cheer you up!
Back by popular demand, it's my turn to give back.
Thanks to everyone who already made the previous giveaway such a success!
New Kiriban OPEN
The number to reach is is 371,117.
For the first time, i'm having two kiribans in a week to double your chances of winning.
In case you don't know, a kiriban is when you watch a person's page count, then if you happen to see the special number, take a screenshot of it to win a prize! You must include the clock in your screenshot to qualify.
As for the point giveaway, There are a few important changes and NEW PRIZES.
I'm giving away 100 points to one lucky winner and 50 points to THREE lucky winners on 9/24.
Two other people will win a 1 month feature on my page.
If you're really lucky, one pe
Would you like a pixel chibi from me? [RAFFLE]Yes? Then... It's a RAFFLE TIME!
Let's celebrate the fact that I've got 799 watchers or something,
I don't know, I just want to draw something for some random person sooo...
If you want to participate, all you have to do is:
To be my watcher (if you're going to unwatch me after the raffle... don't do it, don't make me sad :C)Fav+ this journal (so you can get the number)[Additional - you can do it, but you don't have to ] Make a journal or poll about my raffle, spread the word
If there's more than 50 persons participating, I will choose 2 winners! (+100 = 3 winners etc.)
The prize is an animated pixel chibi from me
More here: http://theavies.deviantart.com/gallery/36440531/Pixel-art
I will choose the winner w
300 Point Giveaway! (by me!)Okay this is the first time making a point giveaway..
if it turns out great I'd be sure to hold another one again sometime!
there will be 6 winners!
each will get 50 !
How to join:
1. Watch me and CHEVR0LET-CAMAR0 (she's my sis)
2. Fav this journal!
and... you're done!
(if you're aleady watching both of us just fav this journal!)
EDIT: the winners will be chosen with Random.org
Please don't unwatch us if you're a winner
you can unwatch us if you lose, we don't care!
deadline: September 30th 2014
DYNAMIC AND ACTIVE POSING FOR STOCKStock & Resources
Broadly defined, Action Stock is any photo-reference in which the subject is doing SOMETHING. That 'something' does not need to be extreme or particularly kinetic, it just has to show the effects of various forces on the bodies (or other objects) in the image. Perusing an artifact, sitting on someone's knee, even enjoying the aroma of a cup of coffee are great examples of actions that, when explored as stock images, can be of great value to artists.
Of course, there is nothing wrong with extreme, kinetic, over-the-top actions, either...
~ ~ ~
It's worth stating the obvious: if you are interested in exploring the more "kinetic" end of the action spectrum, know your limits. Don't work beyond your skill level and observe all necessary safety precautions; no shot is worth getting hurt over.
BODIES IN MOTION
In 2007, when I first started paying regular attention to the DD page on this site, I quickly realized that the general photography galleries were being watched over by three ladies with an insane amount of talent in their medium but widely disparate styles and viewpoints - and they were all awesome. Staged, Sandra Keplinger, was this passionate German high-style lady with an eye for cinematographic compositions and journalistic attacks; hellfirediva, Tina The Rabbit Whisperer, was the Macro Queen who loved the colourful and the spunky; and then there was equivoque, Elinor Scott-Sutter, who seemed to be forever on the hunt for the most artistic executions possible. Over the years since then I had the chance to get to know each of them personally, and they all influenced my photography more than I'd ever like to admit. Sandra became an idol to me, and to date she's still one of my favourite photographers in the real world; Tina became a good personal friend, then
CI Give away(Help needed) ends 21 October hello dear members,
it's time for a new give away
Rules of the Give away .
to enter in this give away fav and comment on the journal below this is important because you need to get a number from me(if you don't comment you cannot get a number and not win)this give away is only open for members,contributors,admins,and co founders of CI (in order to enter join Creation-inspiration: (excludingmariridoodleparadise and Tsuki-SoraRuki (both accounts are from Me)if you are a member and want to give it to a friend we accept it just let me know in a comment.at the end of the giveaway winners will be randomly chosen (with random.org)you must be a member of deviantart for at least two weeks in order to enter in this contest!write anything you want on this blog no mean,or rude comments
very special thanks to my donators for this month we can continue holding these thank you guys for all the support
As darkness consumes meConfessions of a broken angel -
1. i cut my finger last night to feel a different type of pain
2. Im slowly getting skinnier...im alittle scared...my lower ribs stick out alittle now...
3. Im developing nightmare-disorder,,causing me to fall asleep at 5am
4. i can feel the darkening thoughts take over my mind
5. my heart was once filled with happiness, now it feels like its poisoning itself each time i have a happy thought
6. i dont bother to try anymore...i try to be strong but life punches me harder each time until i hit the floor
7. Nearly all the time this temptation to scream wont stop.
8. i can see myself getting depression again.
9. i hide the pain behind a fake smile, fake laugh, fake happiness, when my eyes are screaming loudly the pain within this darkness of mine.
10. Maybe i was destined to have darkness follow me forever.....to ensure its the hardest for me to let my heart love another
11. i can feel myself slowly changing.....im scared
Darkness is worse then you could pos
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