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What is it like to have depression and Anxiety?Having both is like having a shadow monster at your ankle, never leaving you alone, always attacking you at night, only letting you sleep to have nightmares or night terrors, if you ever go outside even for an hour, the monster will point out every time someone looks at you, everytime time someone smiles at you or even walks past you, you then start to think all the negative and worry and/or panic about the little stupid things. It’s like the only time you feel safe is when you’re lost in your own little world away from all the darkness and horror and troubles and monsters. No matter what anyone says to you, “you’ll get better”, “your fine” “stop moping about you look happy” these words are foreign to you, you don't know how to cope, you seem to be always lost. And as the months…years go by, it only gets worse, the monster grows, the monster invites more monster to join it, and before you know it all your dream
i like drawing and creating art..
but these days it seems to be going nowhere
Too many people are staring into the "professional digital artworks"
What about us?
the non professional ones?
We work just as hard to make our work
We all have dreams to use our art skills throughout our lives
I barely get any feedback these days.. the most ive gotten is 2 or 3 people (if that)
If nothing is going to take me somewhere
If no person is going to look or notice
If the creative ones get passed, un-noticed..
Should i even bother to continue creating my works?
I know theyre not the -professional digital art- or the -professional traditional art-
But in a whole its the best its creator can do.
i am also speaking for those who wonder like me,
Why is it that nearly (if not all) the attention are only focused on those who do courses, on those whom seem professional in their field, who do concepts for games/movies.
Why not rest of us?
We put just as much hard work
We spend just as mu
Im still aliveI only just realized how long it has been since i last posted a picture.. o.0
Not that anyone cared or noticed...>.>
Been busy with alot of things including making more NEW (epicness) artworks,
Ill upload them when i have the time
Which is idk when..
My tumblr URL has changed if your interested.
Me Tumblr.. warning it has LOTSA rave lights.
Feel free to follow me and i shall follow you back.
Please read my post on questions as i am allowing each person to ask me at the most 30 questions.
Because i simple adore being asked things.
Read the post on the main page for more info.
Llama love all around
WallpapersEver saw a picture of yourself, a group of friends, or just something you adore and wanted it to be your wallpaper but nicely edited?
Well i now do that for you at no cost at all~
The above links are 2 that ive done for my mates on Facebook.
Your requested photo(s) can be of anything but NO NUDES!
Either link me the photo or email it to me.
If going to email, send me an inbox then i shall give it the contact to send to.
Each wallpaper takes about 15-30mins to make, so youll have it quickly.
Once completed i will upload, link you the page then viola!
One's DisguiseCreature stalking
Is it imaginary, is it real
Is it something more..or less
We may never know..
Glistening red eyes of horror
Fanged jaw with evil happy grin
To crawl among dreams
To grow in Nightmare
Speaks of words with disturbing effect in unknown language of our own.
To be tall, bone skinned, 2wings of a dying dove
A mind like a zombie
A heart of broken steel
To whisper in one's sleep
To breathe into your soul
To disturb your thinking
Wishing it had some happiness.. to feel alive like it once did.
Blackened spiked tail
Spine jiggered and bare
Hugging you with sense of fear, yet you feel like you know well
It's memories drapes your flashbacks
Thinking through...long and hard
Eyes open wide with shock and confusion
To see who this monster really is, to see it never a monster.
But an old friend caught in their own nightmare's disguise
Seeking help, lost everywhere, turning more
Where there is no cure but to destroy the Nightma
TUMBLRRRRRRRI has a tumblr
*feels proud & part of world again*
My tumblr contains my artwork and my photography with more of both being added soons.
ASK MEH stuff on it.. or the zombies will rape your butt!
Please follow and ill follow you :3
Courses? Plz help!Im slowly getting into doing digital painting/drawing and im really enjoying it,
but i would like to do a course (preferable online because things at home arnt good)
Ive been looking through the internet and not so sure as to which one to pick.
Any recommendations as to what course would be best for me?
Also any particular digital-paint programs/soft wares that would help me?
awsomenessWell finally home from my trip. The 5hour plane flight was pretty okay.
Im open for any commissions and/or requests. (I cannot do humans - absolutely suck at them - lol)
I will be submitting again very soon.
Have alot of drawing ideas and some WIP to upload, so there'll be something to see very soons. ^.^
PREMIUM + POINTS GIVEAWAY /Project EARNPREMIUM MEMBERSHIP & POINTS GIVEAWAY
AS PART OF PROJECT EARN
Prizes: 3 month premium membership, 1 month premium membership, 300 points
I told you a new giveaway was coming! This time I do it to spread the word about my current dA project PROJECT EARN which focus on encouraging awareness in different topics every month. The current topic is about bullying and everyone is welcomed to participate! Read more here: Project EARN introduction
This will be my 3rd giveaway and it will work the same way as the other times. The difference this time is that you have the chance to win a 3-month premium membership!
1st: 3 MONTH FREE PREMIUM MEMBERSHIP (1 winner)
2nd: 1 MONTH FREE PREMIUM MEMBERSHIP (2 winners)
3rd: 100 POINTS (1 w
NEW CONTEST: Draw Izka or Amelia!!So I decided to open a new contest, draw either one or both of my original characters: Izka & Amelia!
I really hope you will be interested in entering
~~~~~~~~~CHARACTERS: Izka and Amelia~~~~~~~~~
Click the image below for more info about the characters!!
- Draw my Original Character: Amelia or Izka, or both girls.
- You can draw only one girl or both together.
- You can add your own original characters to the picture as long as theres Amelia or Izka in it! (or both)!
Especially animals or creatures, since both girls love animals/ creatures a lot!
-Please draw Amelia with her bunny ears & tail
And then I returned...It's been a while since I've been actively online.
But even though temporary, it did changed my perspective on some matters.
It's weird how much the internet can become an influence, and how this process goes so unnoticed. At a certain point the countless voices of people around you blend into a continuous buzz. A buzz that you soon get so familiar with that you forget there was a life before it. I guess that's what social media does in general; creating a buzz. An artificial need for you to continuously be online and check your messages, because you might just miss something otherwise. Life, in general, has become so infused with the internet that it sometimes scares me. I'm part of the internet industry. Hell, I even made it my job! But even I sometimes find myself wondering where the time has gone that I could work on an artwork for hours straight, without feeling that creeping itch to check my messages.
The last few weeks before the break, I've repeatedly felt bad about
The World's Grumpiest Charity CollaborationThe long wait is over! The new charity collab is officially OPEN!
Take a close look at my previous collaborations:
Honoring our antagonists/supporting antagonists
Celebrating Kirby's Anniversary
Biggest collab on deviantART by far with 270 people!!
I am happy to announce the next theme!
Grumpy Cat is the theme of this collaboration!! Let us honor the world's grumpiest cat and raise money for the Animal Shelter!!
For every submission I get, I will add $0.50 to the pool. That money will be sent to the SPCA right here in Swift Current. this is a "no kill" shelter and the are in a bind right now. Every grumpy cat will be for a good cause! Help me reach 200 people again! If I get 200 submissions, I will donate 50 do
~500 Points GiveAway!!!!!!!!~:icondragonhi: Hi everyones!!
Finally I have the necessary points to make a little giveaway, for the members of this group.
The points are from my personal points box.
Only one will can win this special price.
Addicional Gifts: I will raffle 3 free commission beetwen the participants too (exept the winner)
How Participe? Is very simple
1. Watch me SolKorra :iconsolkorra:
2. Fave this draws
3. Comment this journal with the word "Done".
4.If you want participe too for the 3 free commissions, comment with th
PE: How to Make Pixel CloudsHow to Make Pixel Clouds
In this tutorial, I will be showing you how to make pixel clouds. I have two different types of clouds I use depending on the piece; semi-realistic, and cartoon style. I will be showing you both today!
Let us start!
The semi realistic style can be done two ways, depending on if you are limiting colors or not.
First, I'm going to show you the way for if you do not care how many colors you use.
First you will pull out your pencil brush, as you would normally do when making pixel art, and set the color to white. After that, set the opacity to around 10%-20%.
Randomly brush side to side with the pencil, and then overlap some lines randomly as well.
Keep doing that until the cloud if about as big as you need it; it should look something like this.c:
Two Themes Contest - donate prizesTwo Themes Contest
new contest and this contest we will do differently because it was very difficult to choose 1 theme among the 20 suggestions made, then will have two themes, and you can choose which theme to make your entry.
and the themes chosen are :
My friend is a monster (can be a fantasy creatures)
choose your favorite theme for you to make your entry. and do something creative, because jurors will judge creativity.
Caro the Nightwolf Contest! Comment to Enter!Are you ready for this?
Carolyn the Nigthwolf's 5th year anniversary contest ! WOOT WOOT!!
Comment if you are going to enter!
What will you have to do?
Draw Carolyn the Nightwolf (main thing, you need her XD)
If you want to add someone you can do her with whoever (it could be an old friend, it could be Ticker the Zebra, Static, Her star buddy!)
1. It can be a drawing (pixels to traditional to digital), song or animation. (I don't want stories ^^' I just don't really read! I'm sorry!)
(if you have another form you want to tell me about, do so)
2. No bases or recoloring, however you can reference a photo if you need a part of something (like tree settings)
3. Keep it PG ^^' (I don't need to know what my character has under her clothes)
4. Make it by the deadline, if your tablet breaks, I'm going to help you out with time the best I can !!
We Are Resurrecting!:iconwriters-workshop:
Following our previous journal on our zombifiction revival, I am pleased to say it is crazy enough to have a go! I don’t expect every one of our 1500 members to get involved, but even if there is a handful each time getting some good out of this, then that’s one handful getting a better attack on their writing and understanding their niches. These groups hold a great opportunity to explore and stretch even the more experienced writers, and I believe that’s what made this group so good to begin with.
The Plan Batman
So here is my plan.
In May, we will hold a new workshop. The entire workshop will be encapsulated in one month: 2 weeks to write, 2 weeks to workshop.
Week 1, Day 1: Workshop brief is launched and you have 2 weeks to submit. The standard to what you submit can be anything from a rough draft to something you have worked on, it doesn't even have to be complete yet. (Please ensure you pu
As darkness consumes meConfessions of a broken angel -
1. i cut my finger last night to feel a different type of pain
2. Im slowly getting skinnier...im alittle scared...my lower ribs stick out alittle now...
3. Im developing nightmare-disorder,,causing me to fall asleep at 5am
4. i can feel the darkening thoughts take over my mind
5. my heart was once filled with happiness, now it feels like its poisoning itself each time i have a happy thought
6. i dont bother to try anymore...i try to be strong but life punches me harder each time until i hit the floor
7. Nearly all the time this temptation to scream wont stop.
8. i can see myself getting depression again.
9. i hide the pain behind a fake smile, fake laugh, fake happiness, when my eyes are screaming loudly the pain within this darkness of mine.
10. Maybe i was destined to have darkness follow me forever.....to ensure its the hardest for me to let my heart love another
11. i can feel myself slowly changing.....im scared
Darkness is worse then you could pos
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Bluefley has a gallery filled with artwork that whisks you off in to a Sci-fi daydream, and keeps you captivated for hours. Marc has been a member of our community for over a decade and has achieved nothing but success with his astounding commitment to interacting with the community, sharing a prolific amount of video tutorials and generally being an all round rockstar deviant. It is no joke that we are absolutely delighted to award the Deviousness Award for April 2014 to ... Read More