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What is it like to have depression and Anxiety?Having both is like having a shadow monster at your ankle, never leaving you alone, always attacking you at night, only letting you sleep to have nightmares or night terrors, if you ever go outside even for an hour, the monster will point out every time someone looks at you, everytime time someone smiles at you or even walks past you, you then start to think all the negative and worry and/or panic about the little stupid things. It’s like the only time you feel safe is when you’re lost in your own little world away from all the darkness and horror and troubles and monsters. No matter what anyone says to you, “you’ll get better”, “your fine” “stop moping about you look happy” these words are foreign to you, you don't know how to cope, you seem to be always lost. And as the months…years go by, it only gets worse, the monster grows, the monster invites more monster to join it, and before you know it all your dream
i like drawing and creating art..
but these days it seems to be going nowhere
Too many people are staring into the "professional digital artworks"
What about us?
the non professional ones?
We work just as hard to make our work
We all have dreams to use our art skills throughout our lives
I barely get any feedback these days.. the most ive gotten is 2 or 3 people (if that)
If nothing is going to take me somewhere
If no person is going to look or notice
If the creative ones get passed, un-noticed..
Should i even bother to continue creating my works?
I know theyre not the -professional digital art- or the -professional traditional art-
But in a whole its the best its creator can do.
i am also speaking for those who wonder like me,
Why is it that nearly (if not all) the attention are only focused on those who do courses, on those whom seem professional in their field, who do concepts for games/movies.
Why not rest of us?
We put just as much hard work
We spend just as mu
Im still aliveI only just realized how long it has been since i last posted a picture.. o.0
Not that anyone cared or noticed...>.>
Been busy with alot of things including making more NEW (epicness) artworks,
Ill upload them when i have the time
Which is idk when..
My tumblr URL has changed if your interested.
Me Tumblr.. warning it has LOTSA rave lights.
Feel free to follow me and i shall follow you back.
Please read my post on questions as i am allowing each person to ask me at the most 30 questions.
Because i simple adore being asked things.
Read the post on the main page for more info.
Llama love all around
WallpapersEver saw a picture of yourself, a group of friends, or just something you adore and wanted it to be your wallpaper but nicely edited?
Well i now do that for you at no cost at all~
The above links are 2 that ive done for my mates on Facebook.
Your requested photo(s) can be of anything but NO NUDES!
Either link me the photo or email it to me.
If going to email, send me an inbox then i shall give it the contact to send to.
Each wallpaper takes about 15-30mins to make, so youll have it quickly.
Once completed i will upload, link you the page then viola!
One's DisguiseCreature stalking
Is it imaginary, is it real
Is it something more..or less
We may never know..
Glistening red eyes of horror
Fanged jaw with evil happy grin
To crawl among dreams
To grow in Nightmare
Speaks of words with disturbing effect in unknown language of our own.
To be tall, bone skinned, 2wings of a dying dove
A mind like a zombie
A heart of broken steel
To whisper in one's sleep
To breathe into your soul
To disturb your thinking
Wishing it had some happiness.. to feel alive like it once did.
Blackened spiked tail
Spine jiggered and bare
Hugging you with sense of fear, yet you feel like you know well
It's memories drapes your flashbacks
Thinking through...long and hard
Eyes open wide with shock and confusion
To see who this monster really is, to see it never a monster.
But an old friend caught in their own nightmare's disguise
Seeking help, lost everywhere, turning more
Where there is no cure but to destroy the Nightma
TUMBLRRRRRRRI has a tumblr
*feels proud & part of world again*
My tumblr contains my artwork and my photography with more of both being added soons.
ASK MEH stuff on it.. or the zombies will rape your butt!
Please follow and ill follow you :3
Courses? Plz help!Im slowly getting into doing digital painting/drawing and im really enjoying it,
but i would like to do a course (preferable online because things at home arnt good)
Ive been looking through the internet and not so sure as to which one to pick.
Any recommendations as to what course would be best for me?
Also any particular digital-paint programs/soft wares that would help me?
awsomenessWell finally home from my trip. The 5hour plane flight was pretty okay.
Im open for any commissions and/or requests. (I cannot do humans - absolutely suck at them - lol)
I will be submitting again very soon.
Have alot of drawing ideas and some WIP to upload, so there'll be something to see very soons. ^.^
CI Pm Give away(Help needed) ends 20 Mayit's 20 April
happy easter fellow members and also time for a new give away 8D
but first a very special thanks to my donators below we can continue holding these thank you guys for all the support
~~A big thanks to our donators for the Month April
(I send you a note fast as possible if you didn't got featured yet!)
for those of you who do not know, I, Tsuki-SoraRuki decide to do a project
called project Pm give away here yo
PE: How to Make Pixel CloudsHow to Make Pixel Clouds
In this tutorial, I will be showing you how to make pixel clouds. I have two different types of clouds I use depending on the piece; semi-realistic, and cartoon style. I will be showing you both today!
Let us start!
The semi realistic style can be done two ways, depending on if you are limiting colors or not.
First, I'm going to show you the way for if you do not care how many colors you use.
First you will pull out your pencil brush, as you would normally do when making pixel art, and set the color to white. After that, set the opacity to around 10%-20%.
Randomly brush side to side with the pencil, and then overlap some lines randomly as well.
Keep doing that until the cloud if about as big as you need it; it should look something like this.c:
Easter Egg GiveAway!(closed)
Winner will be announced 1-2 days. Stay tuned!
Narrowed it to five people. ARGH its so hard to decide! Almost there!
Prize: One person will win 100
How to qualify?
Draw an egg on Deviantart Muro using ONE of the following themes. It doesn't matter if it looks good or not, you will not be judged on how it looks but on creativity of how you use the theme below.
~You can choose one theme below!~
Theme 1: I'm a sexy egg
Theme 2: Shiver me timbers
Theme 3: Egg Fusion!!
So again, you have to use DEVIANTART MURO.
GOODLUCK AND HAPPY EASTER!!
Kiriban at 1.000.000 - CaughtIt's as simple as it gets;
Catch my 1.000.000th pageview and get a free head-shot sketch from your character (or any character that you like).
(Screenshot needs to be fullscreen and send to me by private message)
The kiriban is caught.
Anyone bother to explain me how it is possible that 2 people caught the exact same thing on screenshot???
After hearing from multiple people having experience with more than 1 guy catching their kiriban, I can only come to the conclusion that it's reasonable.
DA's counter is probably flawed, in the sense that it only counts an IP once. Which would lead people that spend hours refreshing my page, being able to keep track of the pageviews without actually influencing themselves. It's still kind of weird to think that kind of thing actually happens and people are
April Fools Caption Contest WinnersThanks to all participants from the April Fools Caption Contest! Without any further delay, here are the winners of each photo.
"Hey Charllllllieee! Lets go to Candy Mountain!" - Spiritdream12
"The cold never bothered me anyway." - puffugu
"How to make a Harry Potter Goblet of Fire bubble spell cosplay..." - GillianIvy
Cat: "That's it! This is the last time I look for a roommate on Craigslist!" - Sserenita
"And I want some cake... and some ice cream... and some hot fudge... and some chocolate milk... THEN you can have your sweater back!" - WDWParksGal
Fella: "He's right behind me, isn't he...?" - ShackledMuse
"What do you mean it doesn't look natural??" - Sserenita
"Ha! We got the blanket first!" - MiloticScale
"Life gave me melons.. and it was good!" - darkoracle21
"DAT ASS~" - Nox-ious
Alexandrasalas by Thiefoworld
100 and 500 points giveaway!!But first,...CONTEST!
:iconathenacykes: Is holding a contest and would be really helpful of you go check it out and more better if you enter! Thanks guys!
100 Points GIVEAWAY!!
For just faving this journal and make a journal about this giveaway for both 100 and 500 points(guess to win).
500 POINT GIVEAWAY!!
Are you sick and tired of competing your luck on more than 20-40(or more) people to win points??? WELL NOT ANYMORE!
Also... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLAY WITH ME! I`ve been planning to do this since my birthday!!!! *puppy eyes* It would make a girl happy like me right?
GUESS THE SONG TO WIN!
How to participate?
-Fave this journal (that means you participating)
-YOU have to tell about this giveaway in your journal too! (important, if not disqualified)(yes i do check)
1. All you have to do is watch me play songs from this video
2. You only have to guess the songs to win!
"[song title] - by(sing
DeviantART Compliments #94XxWicked
You are an amazing artist and one of my best friends on Da. You were one of the first people I talked to when I joined Da, back then you were an inspiration but now you help me continue to draw. Your drawings are always beautiful and they each have something special in them thats stands out from the rest. I hope you continue to do what you're doing and remember, if your feeling sad or hurt inside you can always talk. <3
There's a very special deviant everyone should know. HiddenLeafDragon is a good friend of mine, always has been and always will be. He's really funny, very sweet, and super nice He's one of those rare cool people with great skill and talent, and I think everyone should check out his page, because he's really worth the time.
Another deviant who seems to be a little sad lately is Toetag001 She doesn't use her account much anymore, but she's really in need of a cheer-up. She doesn't like attention, but she deserves it! She's a sweetheart and I
Recommend a Friend Project: Relaunch!Holy cow, it's finally getting relaunched! With a bit of a makeover that is Please be sure to read all the new info.
Introducing, the new place for RAF deviants(icon pending )
We now have a group! . Instead of being featured on my profile, your feature will be posted through the group. The concept is still the same, you just send suggestions to the group with all the information filled out (look below for more details). I will then create a journal featuring your friend, that will be up for a full week! The journal will feature five recommended friends. It will also include a tidbit about the recommended friend, including why you should check them out. Once a month, all of the suggesters will be featured in an epic roundup journal.
HOW TO RECOMMEND
Please send the group RecommendAFriend, a note titled
Who Reads dA Lit? A MissionHello deviantART lit community. I have a mission for you. I would like to create an infographic of the readers and writers on deviantART as well as provide a resource for helping the writers of deviantART understand their audience: who they are, what they like, what they want, and their opinions on dA lit. To do so, I have created an easy to complete survey that can be completed anonymously and can be found here: http://goo.gl/bcff8L
Who Reads dA Lit?
The results will be shared in about a month's time on May 18 as raw data for the community to analyze themselves. In the meantime, I would like to ask if you could complete the survey and spread the word to other deviantART members. It is anonymous.
Thank you for your time,
As darkness consumes meConfessions of a broken angel -
1. i cut my finger last night to feel a different type of pain
2. Im slowly getting skinnier...im alittle scared...my lower ribs stick out alittle now...
3. Im developing nightmare-disorder,,causing me to fall asleep at 5am
4. i can feel the darkening thoughts take over my mind
5. my heart was once filled with happiness, now it feels like its poisoning itself each time i have a happy thought
6. i dont bother to try anymore...i try to be strong but life punches me harder each time until i hit the floor
7. Nearly all the time this temptation to scream wont stop.
8. i can see myself getting depression again.
9. i hide the pain behind a fake smile, fake laugh, fake happiness, when my eyes are screaming loudly the pain within this darkness of mine.
10. Maybe i was destined to have darkness follow me forever.....to ensure its the hardest for me to let my heart love another
11. i can feel myself slowly changing.....im scared
Darkness is worse then you could pos
mechanici want to kiss every aching wound you have,
bandage your heart every time it bleeds,
and patch up your mind over and over
because not a single tear deserves to fall
from your brandy-drenched eyes
but this dripping heart of mine can only feel
and the healing honey words it flames get caught
in the back of my throat and on the roof of my mouth
so i only have these passionate guttural cries
to tell you that i care all too much
and in order to fix you up again,
i would need to tear myself to tatters
and trade all of my working parts
for your leftover, fading pieces
but i just haven’t figured out how.
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Bluefley has a gallery filled with artwork that whisks you off in to a Sci-fi daydream, and keeps you captivated for hours. Marc has been a member of our community for over a decade and has achieved nothing but success with his astounding commitment to interacting with the community, sharing a prolific amount of video tutorials and generally being an all round rockstar deviant. It is no joke that we are absolutely delighted to award the Deviousness Award for April 2014 to ... Read More